At home, trying to study. I have so much to do before
going to nail my exams, I think I’m not going to make it…
That feeling makes me sad and defeated. I know I have to
go on and I will make the best of it, but it’s going to be very hard.

My new home and roomie kick ass! I cleaned up some of my stuff,
but we have a small space problem, we need more closets to put away
stuff! I have some boxes left in the kitchen with kitchen stuff and a lot
of boxes with games and DVD’s. We need more storage space.. lol!
I finally feel at ease, I can do my Wii fit exercise with enough space
around me and I’m sitting at the dining table! Yay! It’s the small things
in life that make the difference. Now I finally can make the time to play
games again and with my new roomie I have a partner in crime to rock
with. Playing Rockband with friends is more fun than playing by yourself.

Tomorrow the continuing of work ’till Saturday, It’s going great! My evaluation
was awesome and I think I can learn more to go higher up.. That’s the
whole mission of course. I have a great job!

Well going to the supermarket or something, I can not study any longer or
else my brains are going to drip out of my skull!! LoL

I has moved!! Yesterday, the most important stuff…
I still sleep in the livingroom, cause I have a lot of clothes
and my roommate’s got a lot of clothes herself, so my soon to be
room is stuffed with clothes and shoes.. hahahahaha…
But my matras is moved, so I sleep on my cozy 2 person bed.

My roommate is really cool and I laugh a lot with her! I’m happy,
I feel more chilled out since I moved here and I can do all the things
I like without my dad worrying about it or knowing what’s best for me.
Now I live like 15 minutes by bike from my dad, so I can visit him often.
That’s nice, I lived so far away from him for 10 years, that I’m happy
I live so nearby now.

Well going to bed now, have to go to work tomorrow…Good night!!

Day 4 of being in bed.. I’m so kinda pissed that I’m not a kid anymore.
I would have changed my bed into a hut, but I don’t have enough stuffed
animals around me and I have only one 2 person cover and I need to stay
warm somehow..So no tent for me, just me, myself and my laptop…

I’m feeling a bit better finally.. In 4 days I ate 2 banana’s (monkee’s gotta eat)
3 tangerines and 2 pieces of toast. One wonderful thing: I know I have to have
lost some weight..hmm don’t know if it’s the right way to say it, but whatever!!
Hope I will sleep better tonight and that I’m eating proper amounts of food
tomorrow. I will go to work on friday, cause I’m losing my mind here and I
want to celebrate New Years with friends instead of lying in bed being sad!!

Sick as a dog!! I need to spam..
This is why I hate being sick, you lie in bed, completely vulnerable.
I can not hold any proper food in, I’m trying to keep a tangerine and a banana
inside my stomach without barfing.. I hate it! This is the moment where you lie
in bed for 3 days and be completely alone. 3 days of thinking about everything
and nothing..especially everything is a problem. Drama..

I have seen enough series and movies, I just want to go back to work..
But I feel too weak to go to the toilet..let alone go to work..

It’s going to be a lonely couple of days. Hopefully I feel better with New Year
or else it’s just sad..

Some people like
some people dislike
some people click
some people unclick
some people talk
some people silent
some people hug
some people smack
some people invite
some people uninvite
some people love
some people hate
some people happy
some people sad
some people interesting
some people bored
some people awake
some people tired
some people laugh
some people cry
some people smart
some people dumb
some people old
some people young

Choose only the best to be close to you…

SICK … ”dramatic music” ooow I can get so angry when I’m sick.
I’m having a bad cold and I’m not getting rid of it. I’m coughing my lungs out.
I hope I’ll feel better tomorrow, cause I know myself and I will go to work.
At work it’s going ok, it’s a bit quiet, but that’s because Christmas is on it’s way.
Some people aren’t that awesome to work with, but hey! that’s what you always
get in a company with a lot of people. It would be a miracle if all your colleagues
were awesome..It would be a lot easier though.

Still living at home with my dad. I feel like I’m stuck in one way or another.
I don’t want to move to a small shabby apartment, or better broom closet
and I don’t have enough money to move into a “big castle.” On the other hand
it would be so much quieter for me to live on my own, without a dad that knows
all the things in life better than you do, is always complaining and whom I always
get into discussions I don’t want to be in.

My stylist course hit rock bottom. I don’t have the energy to continue and nobody
is that enthousiastic that I’m taking this course. “why are you doing it?” is the best
reaction I get when I tell I’m doing this course. I have to continue, or else I feel
like a bigger loser than I already do. I don’t have a fucking clue how to motivate
myself though.

I’m glad I had a nice day out with Mark yesterday, hanging out with friends is still hard
while living 100 km away from them. I’m enjoying myself with Facebook, series,
movies, gaming and once and a while with friends. I’m glad that once every two weeks
on wednesday I’ll get picked up by Peter and we go to Jos, just to gossip eh I mean talk
and have a nice evening laughing and snacking. and for the new year I will go on troops
more often, just to feel alive..I hope…

Just what I said…I’m stuck in several ways..
I’m unhappy… Is that strange?

I couldn’t do this one time, cause some of the answers were too freaky or funny…If you’re bored, try it..

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the ‘next’ button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

 
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS ARE YOU OK WHAT DO YOU SAY?
Your not the boss of me now!! (The might be Giants)
2nd – No Good (Prodigy)
3rd – Collecting Things (Jon Brion)

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
R.I.P. (Burn Face)
2nd – Fire coming out of the monkey’s head (gorillaz)
3rd – Rockstar (NERD)

3. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Someone’s missing (MGMT)
2nd – Get up while you can (Atari Teenage riot)
3rd – Factory (Band of Horses)

4. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Serious (Gwen Stefani)
2nd – Black burning heart (Keane)
3rd – All The Right Moves (OneRepublic)

5. WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Bring the Noise! (Skitzofreniks)
2nd – Easy Lover (Divided)
3rd – Breath (Prodigy)

6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Nobody here but us (Therapy?)
2nd – Firestarter (Prodigy)
3rd – Peace Pipe (The Shadows)

7. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Spiralling (Keane)
2nd – Complimenti (8bit – artist unknown)
3rd – Alice (Pogo)8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Out of Space (Audio Bully’s remix) 
2nd – Danger Zone (Gwen Stefani)
3rd – Better than this (Keane)

9. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Not your business (Atari Teenage Riot)
2nd – Deutschland has got to die Mix (Atari Teenage Riot)
3rd – The world is made of this and that (Deeds Plus Thoughts)

10. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Everlong (acoustic by the Foo Fighters)
2nd – Freedom Sound (Skatalites)
3rd – The Big Fake (Tiga)

11. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Sick to Death (Atari Teenage Riot)
2nd – Best of You (Foo Fighters)
3rd – Cloud (Sia)

12. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Winter Winds (Mumford and Sons)
2nd – Oh Yeah (Daft Punk)
3rd – Rollin’ & Scratchin’ (Daft Punk)

13. WHATS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Welcome to the world of the plastic beach ( Gorillaz ft Snoop Dogg and the Hypnotic Brass Ensemble)
2nd – Give me my anger back (Psychedeliasmith – Fat Boy Slim)
3rd – When love takes over (David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland)

14. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Let’s get Loud ( The Baseballs)
2nd – Sexy Boy (Air)
3rd – You make it easy (Air)

15. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Flash Delirium (MGMT)
2nd – Out Of Side/Out Of Mind (Ginger Ninja)
3rd – Final Outro ( I see zombiezzzz Dark Side & Parallel Dimen)

16. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Pirate Jet (Gorillaz)
2nd – The Children (Yeasayer)
3rd – Word Forward (Foo Fighters)

17. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS
Under my wheels (Remix from the Prodigy)
2nd – Something (The Willows)
3rd – Wicked Gil (Band of Horses)

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR LOVE INTEREST?
Milk (Cocorosie)
2nd – Ugly (sugababes)
3rd – You can have it all (Ginger Ninja

Weekend, finally, for one day.
Busy day at work and now waiting for Peet
and Peter to come over and pick me up to go
to Venlo for a meet with DG friends. Just to have
a drink and a talk. Tomorrow Mark will come over
and then we’ll go for a roadtrip to somewhere…
hahaha have no idea what to do, we’ll see.

Weekend!! For me it is…
Saturday and Sunday were tough, but I made it
and today was a typical monday…easy going…
I’m still very happy and blessed with my job.
I spend a lot of money on Adidas stuff, so I think
I should be sponsored by them, I’m the best living
and walking advertisement for Adidas!! hahahaha

Tomorrow going to Ikea with my mum, just to wonder
around and have breakfast… Hello Daim Pie here I come!
I’m glad my mum is having a day off too, I’m a bit bored here…
It’s hard to get started in my old town..Many of the friends I had
when I was 10 years younger fled the town after I did and aren’t so
stupid to return like me. I’m happy that my job is awesome sauce,
cause everything else isn’t. It’s so quiete here, places where you can have
a blast on saturday night don’t excist, a sushi bar is something they
never heard of so to speak and the only thing I can do here is go to the cinema.

One thing for sure is that I’m a lot quieter than before, but all my pent
enthousiasm comes out when I’m with the friends I love and miss… A lot…