Day 4 of being in bed.. I’m so kinda pissed that I’m not a kid anymore.
I would have changed my bed into a hut, but I don’t have enough stuffed
animals around me and I have only one 2 person cover and I need to stay
warm somehow..So no tent for me, just me, myself and my laptop…

I’m feeling a bit better finally.. In 4 days I ate 2 banana’s (monkee’s gotta eat)
3 tangerines and 2 pieces of toast. One wonderful thing: I know I have to have
lost some weight..hmm don’t know if it’s the right way to say it, but whatever!!
Hope I will sleep better tonight and that I’m eating proper amounts of food
tomorrow. I will go to work on friday, cause I’m losing my mind here and I
want to celebrate New Years with friends instead of lying in bed being sad!!

Sick as a dog!! I need to spam..
This is why I hate being sick, you lie in bed, completely vulnerable.
I can not hold any proper food in, I’m trying to keep a tangerine and a banana
inside my stomach without barfing.. I hate it! This is the moment where you lie
in bed for 3 days and be completely alone. 3 days of thinking about everything
and nothing..especially everything is a problem. Drama..

I have seen enough series and movies, I just want to go back to work..
But I feel too weak to go to the toilet..let alone go to work..

It’s going to be a lonely couple of days. Hopefully I feel better with New Year
or else it’s just sad..

Some people like
some people dislike
some people click
some people unclick
some people talk
some people silent
some people hug
some people smack
some people invite
some people uninvite
some people love
some people hate
some people happy
some people sad
some people interesting
some people bored
some people awake
some people tired
some people laugh
some people cry
some people smart
some people dumb
some people old
some people young

Choose only the best to be close to you…

Monkee is going to move!!!
At Januari first a “new life” is starting for me.
I’m going to move in a friends’ house. That means that I have
the freedom without my dad around and the best thing; I have
a roomie! I’m not alone every day and she’s cool!! A first impression:

Translation: 4 hours later – Didn’t you sleep well Jezus? – Silence bitch…

step 6: Buy a corset.

I doesn’t have to be a very expensive corset, just go to a
gothic store and you’ll find different corsets. They’re not
that expensive, well you can make it as expensive as you
want it to be. You have to experience how it is to wear a
corset, you feel 100% woman and uncomfortable sometimes.

SICK … ”dramatic music” ooow I can get so angry when I’m sick.
I’m having a bad cold and I’m not getting rid of it. I’m coughing my lungs out.
I hope I’ll feel better tomorrow, cause I know myself and I will go to work.
At work it’s going ok, it’s a bit quiet, but that’s because Christmas is on it’s way.
Some people aren’t that awesome to work with, but hey! that’s what you always
get in a company with a lot of people. It would be a miracle if all your colleagues
were awesome..It would be a lot easier though.

Still living at home with my dad. I feel like I’m stuck in one way or another.
I don’t want to move to a small shabby apartment, or better broom closet
and I don’t have enough money to move into a “big castle.” On the other hand
it would be so much quieter for me to live on my own, without a dad that knows
all the things in life better than you do, is always complaining and whom I always
get into discussions I don’t want to be in.

My stylist course hit rock bottom. I don’t have the energy to continue and nobody
is that enthousiastic that I’m taking this course. “why are you doing it?” is the best
reaction I get when I tell I’m doing this course. I have to continue, or else I feel
like a bigger loser than I already do. I don’t have a fucking clue how to motivate
myself though.

I’m glad I had a nice day out with Mark yesterday, hanging out with friends is still hard
while living 100 km away from them. I’m enjoying myself with Facebook, series,
movies, gaming and once and a while with friends. I’m glad that once every two weeks
on wednesday I’ll get picked up by Peter and we go to Jos, just to gossip eh I mean talk
and have a nice evening laughing and snacking. and for the new year I will go on troops
more often, just to feel alive..I hope…

Just what I said…I’m stuck in several ways..
I’m unhappy… Is that strange?