Posted on June 30th, 2008 at 8:35 pm by monkee
It’s bin done, it’s over, finito.
Strange how a person’s mind works, At one hand I can understand it completely,
on the other hand it stays a mistery that can’t be solved. A perfect riddle..
I stayed at my parents home for a week.
A week and a half ago I collapsed under all the presure I was on.
Presure from work, but also the presure I was putting myself on.
It was never enough and working was all I did every day, 7 days a week.
5 or 6 days in real life, 7 days in my head. I couldn’t take it anymore and now it’s bin done..
It’s so scary that you can lose yourself completely and don’t know where to find yourself again.
I keep it simple, I’m lost..
I keep it difficult, want to find myself, but don’t know how..
I’m scared, I’m tired, I’m emo, I’m agressive, I’m crying, I’m laughing, I’m strange, I’m difficult..
Who am I?
Posted on June 7th, 2008 at 12:44 pm by monkee
Back after a week with not much to say.
Working is all I do and nothing more. I’m drowning myself,
but don’t have a clue how to stop that.
I haven’t got much to do besides working,
I can’t get a good sleep and friends are busy..
The strangest thing is that I feel desperately alone,
but I don’t feel like hanging out either.
It’s hard to explain, but feeling lonely but don’t feel
like hanging out isn’t a good combo..
You’re in need of attention, but on the other hand
you can be annoyed by people when you get attention.
Guess it has to do with the kind of people who are “bothering” you..
Yesterday I had a good talk with a friend of mine about work,
and specially about working too much.
Later that evening I had a good conversation
with a bunch of friends about our selfimage.
The video’s on MTV and TMF with like 99%
of naked “hot” women is not egoboosting…
Just like the adverts about slimming down and
losing your cellulite, while watching women who
are like a skeleton and don’t even live with the
problem of losing fat or cellulite.
But the conversation was nice, it gave me another
point of view…
Especially without a screen between us..
Now I just wanna be alone again, or not..
Posted on June 7th, 2008 at 11:50 am by monkee
Beatsteaks, German punkband, started out in ‘95..
I like them very much…check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beatsteaks form more info 
Posted on May 30th, 2008 at 7:00 pm by monkee
A week past by as a big storm. Didn’t like it at all.
Worked too much, cause we lost 2 guys personel.
Had to work a lot of barshifts and broke my record baking tosti’s
(toast with melted cheese and ham)
and making Hamburgers and Fries at the same time (Thanks Maaike)
I’ve got a strong feeling that I’m in desperate need of a week of sleep
or like 6.
Like a month ago I had a break for 2 weeks and when I got back,
I thought I could conquer the world.
That feeling stayed for 2 days..*sigh* and now…
I feel like I never had a break at all.
Mr. Redbull is still my lover and my best friend..
The only break I have is late at night when I try
to kill Rikush in a private Call of Duty 4 match.
The only rest I get is when I’m sitting on the toilet for a few minutes
while staring at Wolverine at work or Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom at home.
And even then I bring my psp with me or am I still thinking what to do..
I’m in a big ocean
calm and rough
waves keep coming
big and small
still swimming
but more drowning
when do I hit the sand?
Posted on May 30th, 2008 at 6:30 pm by monkee
I made a new apple pie a couple of days ago and I wanted to share my masterpiece!! muahahahaha
Hmmmmmm PIE!!
For more info or a piece of cake eh.. apple pie just give me a sign…maybe I’ll bake one for u…LOL
Posted on May 30th, 2008 at 6:27 pm by monkee
The biggest free for all Game event in The Netherlands ever and it’s called Free Gaming!
Saturday 21th of june, from 14:00 till 23:00 o clock. Free entrance! So come on over and see all the FUN in gaming!
For more info, www.free-gaming.nl ( it’s in Dutch sorry) But all the info u wanna know, a lot of new games (in europe)
as in The Force Unleashed, Ghostbusters and Soul Calibur with Yoda and my homie Darth Vader 
a lot of game art,
artists and last but not least, Star Wars peeps from the Dutch Outpost and Ghost Busters!! Woohooo See u then!!
Posted on May 20th, 2008 at 6:20 pm by monkee
I found this song on youtube, like “duh” in big font..
It’s a kind of hard song, I like it
Enjoy!
My rating for Plain white T’s
Posted on May 20th, 2008 at 6:14 pm by monkee
Many of my friends don’t make dinner for themselves, with the remark that it takes too much time to cook…
This is a dish made in 10 minutes
What to get:
- Rice
- Cucumber
- vegetables (allready sorted out in the supermarket,
you can buy a bag of vegetables)
- Beefburgers (you can buy them allready spiced up)
- aaaa lot of Garlic Lot’s of lot’s of garlic…
- a pan with water for the rice, kooks in 10 minutes
- a wok, first throw in the beefburgers and crush them and
last but not least the vegetables, don’t kill the vegetables!!
What I mean to say, put them in like 5 minutes, or else
the vegetables become shmegetables…
And in 10 minutes you get yourself a nice, healthy meal!! Taadaaaaaaa
With love from your one and only monkee!!
Posted on May 9th, 2008 at 11:45 pm by monkee
Is it a plane? Is it a bird? NO! It’s a MOnkee Stormtrooper!! LOL
